Author of "The Call of the Wild," "The Sea-Wolf," etc.
He travels fastest who travels alone . . . but not after the frost has dropped below zero fify degrees or more. - Yukon Code.
DAY had broken cold and gray, exceedingly cold and gray, when the man turned
aside from the main Yukon trail and climbed the high earth-bank, where a dim
and little-traveled trail led eastward through the fat spruce timberland. It
was a steep bank, and he paused for breath at the top, excusing the act to
himself by looking at his watch. It was nine o'clock. There was no sun or hint
of sun, though there was not a cloud in the sky. It was a clear day, and yet
there seemed an intangible pall over the face of things, a subtle gloom that
made the day dark, and that was due to the absence of sun. This fact did not
worry the man. He was used to the lack of sun. It had been days since he had
seen the sun, and he knew that a few more days must pass before that cheerful
orb, due south, would just peep above the sky-line and dip immediately from
view.
The man flung a look back along the way he had
come. The Yukon lay a mile wide and hidden under three feet of ice. On top of
this ice were as many feet of snow. It was all pure white, rolling in gentle,
snow-covered undulations where the ice-jams of the freeze-up had formed. North
and south, as far as his eye could see, it was unbroken white, save for a dark
hair-line that curved and twisted from around the spruce-covered island to the
south, and that curved and twisted away into the north, where it disappeared
behind another spruce-covered island. This dark hair-line was the trail - the
main trail - that led five hundred miles to the Chilcoot Pass, Dyea, and salt
water; and that led north seventy miles to Dawson, and still on to the north a
thousand miles to Nulato, and finally to St. Michael on Bering Sea, a thousand
miles and half a thousand more.
But all this - the mysterious, far-reaching
hair-line trail, the absence of sun from the sky, the tremendous cold, and the
strangeness and weirdness of it all - made not impression on the man. It was
not because he was long used to it. He was a new-comer to the land, a
chechaquo, and this was his first winter. The trouble with him was that
he was without imagination. He was quick and alert in the things of life, but
only in the things, and not in the significances. Fifty degrees below zero
meant eighty-odd degrees of frost. Such fact impressed him as being cold and
uncomfortable, and that was all. It did not lead him to meditate upon his
frailty as a creature of temperature, and upon man's frailty in general, able
only to live within certain narrow limits of temperature; and from there on it
did not lead him to the conjectural field of immortality and man's place in
the universe. Fifty degrees below zero stood for a bite of frost that hurt and
that must be guarded against by the use of mittens, ear-flaps, warm moccasins,
and thick socks. Fifty degrees below zero was to him just precisely fifty
degrees below zero. That there should be anything more to it than that was a
thought that never entered his head.
As he turned to go on, he spat speculatively.
There was a sharp, explosive crackle that startled him. He spat again. And
again, in the air, before it could fall to the snow, the spittle crackled. He
knew that at fifty below spittle crackled on the snow, but this spittle had
crackled in the air. Undoubtedly it was colder than fifty below - how much
colder he did not know. But the temperature did not matter. He was bound for
the old claim on the left fork of Henderson Creek, where the boys were already.
They had come over across the divide from the Indian Creek country while he had
come the round-about way to take a look at the possibilities of getting out
logs in the spring from the islands in the Yukon. He would be in to camp by six
o'clock; a bit after dark, it was true, but the boys would be there, a fire
would be going, and a hot supper would be ready. As for lunch, he pressed his
hand against the protruding bundle under his jacket. It was also under his
shirt, wrapped up in a handkerchief, and lying against the naked skin. It was
the only way to keep the biscuits from freezing. He smiled agreeably to himself
as he thought of those biscuits, each cut open and sopped in bacon grease, and
each inclosing a generous slice of fried bacon.
He plunged in among the big spruce-trees. The
trail was faint. A foot of snow had fallen since the last sled had passed over,
and he was glad he was without a sled, traveling light. In fact, he carried
nothing but the lunch wrapped in the handkerchief. He was surprised however, at
the cold. It certainly was cold, he concluded, as he rubbed his numb nose and
cheek-bones with his mittened hand. He was a warm-whiskered man, but the hair
on his face did not protect the high cheek-bones and the eager nose that thrust
itself aggressively into the frosty air.
At the man's heels trotted a dog, a big native
husky, the proper wolf-dog, gray-coated and without any visible or
temperamental difference from its brother, the wild wolf. The animal was
depressed by the tremendous cold. It knew that it was no time for traveling.
Its instinct told it a truer tale than was told to the man by the man's
judgment. In reality, it was not merely colder than fifty below zero; it was
colder than sixty below, than seventy below. It was seventy-five below zero.
Since the freezing-point is thirty-two above zero, it meant that one hundred
and seven degrees of frost obtained. The dog did not know anything about
thermometers. Possibly in his brain there was no sharp consciousness of a
condition of very cold such as was in the man's brain. But the brute had its
instinct. It experienced a vague but menacing apprehension that subdued it and
made it shrink along at the man's heels, and that made it question eagerly
every unwonted movement of the man as if expecting him to go into camp or to
seek shelter somewhere and build a fire. The dod had learned fire, and it
wanted fire, or else to burrow under the snow and cuddle its warmth in the
confined space.
The frozen moisture of its breathing had settled
on its fur in a fine powder of frost, and especially were its jowls, muzzle,
and eyelashes whitened by its crystalled breath. The man's red beard and
mustache were likewise frosted, but more solidly, the deposit taking the form
of ice, and increasing with every warm, moist breath he exhaled. Also, the man
was chewing tobacco, and the muzzle of ice held his lips so rigidly that he was
unable to clear his chin when he expelled the juice. The result was that a
crystal beard of the color and solidity of amber was increasing its length on
his chin. If he fell down it would shatter itself, like glass, into brittle
fragments. But he did not mind the appendage. It was the penalty all
tobacco-chewers paid in that country, and he had been out before in two cold
snaps. They had not been so cold as this, he knew, but by the spirit
thermometer at Sixty Mile he knew they had been registered at fifty below and
at fifty-five.
He held on through the level stretch of woods,
for several miles, crossed a wide flat of n----r-heads, and dropped down a bank
to the frozen bed of a small stream. This was Henderson Creek, and he knew he
was ten miles from the forks. He looked at his watch. It was ten o'clock. He
was making four miles an hour, and he calculated that he would arrive at the
forks at half-past twelve. He decided to celebrate that event by eating his
lunch there.
The dog dropped in again at his heels with a tail
drooping discouragement as the man swung along the creek-bed. The furrow of the
old sled-trail was plainly visible, but a dozen inches of snow covered the
marks of the last runners. In a month no man had come up or down that silent
creek. The man held steadily on. He was not much given to thinking, and just
then he had nothing to thing about save that he would eat lunch at the forks
and that at six o'clock he would be in camp with the boys. There was nobody to
talk to; and, had there been, speech would have been impossible because of the
ice-muzzle on his mouth. So he continued monotonously to chew tobacco and to
increase the length of his amber beard.
Once in a while the thought reiterated itself
that it was very cold and that he had never experienced such cold. As he walked
along he rubbed his cheek-bones and nose with the back of his mittened hand. He
did this automatically, now and again changing hands. But rub as he would, the
instant he stopped, his cheek-bones went numb, and the following instant the
end of his nose went numb. He was sure to frost his cheeks; he knew that, and
experienced a pang of regret that he had not devised a nose-strap of the sort
Bud wore in cold snaps. Such a strapped passed across the cheeks, as well, and
saved them. But it did n't matter much, after all. What were frosted cheeks? A
bit painful, that was all; they were never serious.
Empty as the man's mind was of thoughts, he was
keenly observant, and he noticed the changes in the creek, the curves and bends
and timber-jams, and always he sharply noted where he placed his feet. Once,
coming around a bend, he shied abruptly, like a startled horse, curved away
from the place where he had been walking, and retreated several paces back
along the trail. The creek he knew was frozen clear to the bottom, - no creek
could contain water in that arctic winter, - but he knew also that there were
springs that bubbled out from the hillsides and ran along under the snow and
on top the ice of the creek. He knew that the coldest snaps never froze these
springs, and he knew likewise their danger. They were traps. They hid pools of
water under the snow that might be three inches deep, or three feet. Sometimes
a skin of ice half an inch thick covered them, and in turn was covered by the
snow. Sometimes there were alternate layers of water and ice-skin, so that when
one broke through he kept on breaking through for a while, sometimes wetting
himself to the waist.
That was why he had shied in such panic. He had
felt the give under his feet and heard the crackle of a snow-hidden ice-skin.
And to get his feet wet in such a temperature meant trouble and danger. At the
very least it meant delay, for he would be forced to stop and build a fire, and
under its protections to bare his feet while he dried his socks and moccasins.
He stood and studied the creek-bed and its banks, and decided that the flow of
water came from the right. He reflected awhile, rubbing his nose and cheeks,
then skirted to the left, stepping gingerly and testing his footing for each
step. Once clear of the danger, he took a fresh chew of tobacco, and swung
along at his four-mile gait.
In the course of the next tow hours he came upon
several similar traps. Usually the snow above the hidden pools had a sunken,
candied appearance that advertised the danger. Once again, however, he had a
close call; and once, suspecting danger, he compelled the dog to go on in
front. The dog did not want to go. It hung back until the man shoved it
forward, and then went quickly across the white, unbroken surface. Suddenly it
broke through, floundered to one side, and got away to firmer footing. It had
wet its forefeet and legs, and almost immediately the water that clung to it
turned to ice. It made quick efforts to lick the ice off its legs, then dropped
down in the snow, and began to bite out the ice that had formed between the
toes. This is was a matter of instinct. To permit the ice to remain would mean
sore feet. It did not know this. It merely obeyed the mysterious prompting that
arose from the deep crypts of its being. But the man knew, having achieved the
judgment on the subject, and he removed the mitten from his right hand and
helped tear out the ice-particles. He did not expose his fingers more than a
minute, and was astonished at the swift numbness that smote them. It certainly
was cold. He pulled on the mitten hastily, and beat the hand savagely across
his chest.
At twelve o'clock the day was at its brightest.
Yet the sun was too far south on its winter journey to clear the horizon. The
bulge of the earth intervened between it and Henderson Creek, where the man
walked under a clear sky at noon and cast no shadow. At half past twelve to
the minute he arrived at the forks of the creek. He was pleased at the speed
he had made. If he kept it up, he would certainly be with the boys by six. He
unbuttoned his jacket and shirt and drew forth his lunch. The action consumed
no more than a quarter of a minute, yet in that brief moment the numbness laid
hold of the exposed fingers. He did not put the mitten on, but, instead, struck
the fingers a dozen sharp smashes against his leg. Then he sat down on a
snow-covered log to eat. The sting that followed upon the striking of his
fingers against his leg ceased so quickly that he was startled. He had had not
chance to take a bite of biscuit. He struck the fingers repeatedly and returned
them to the mitten, baring the other for the purpose of eating. He tried to
take a mouthful but the ice-muzzle prevented. He had forgotten to build a fire
and thaw out. He chuckled at his foolishness, and as he chuckled he noted the
numbness creeping into the exposed fingers. Also, he noted that the stinging
which had first come to his toes when he sat down was already passing away. He
wondered whether the toes were warm or numb. He moved them inside the moccasins
and decided that they were numb.
He pulled the mitten on hurriedly and stood up.
He was a bit frightened. He stamped up and down until the stinging returned
into the feet. It certainly was cold, was his thought. That man from Sulphur
Creek had spoken the truth when telling how cold it sometimes got in the
country. And he had laughed at him at the time! That showed one must not be too
sure of things. There was no mistake about it, it was cold. He strode up
and down, stamping his feet and threshing his arms, until reassured by the
returning warmth. Then he got out matches and proceeded to make a fire. From
the undergrowth, where high water of the previous spring had lodged a supply of
seasoned twigs, he got his fire-wood. Working carefully from the small
beginning, he soon had a roaring fire, over which he thawed the ice from his
face, and in the protection of which he ate his biscuits. For the moment the
cold of space was outwitted. The dog took satisfaction in the fire, stretching
out close enough for warmth and far enough away to escape being singed.
When the man had finished, he filled his pipe and
took his comfortable time over a smoke. Then he pulled on his mittens, settled
the ear-flaps of his cap firmly over his ears, and took the creek trail up the
left fork. The dog was disappointed and yearned back toward the fire. This man
did not know cold. Possibly all the generations of his ancestry had been
ignorant of cold, of real cold, of cold one hundred and seven degrees below
freezing-point. But the dog knew; all its ancestry knew, and it had inherited
the knowledge. And it knew that it was not good to walk abroad in such fearful
cold. It was time to lie snug in a hole in the snow and wait for a curtain of
cloud to be drawn across the face of outer space whence this cold came. On the
other hand, there was no keen intimacy between the dog and the man. The one was
the toil-slave of the other, and the only caresses it had ever received were
the caresses of the whip-lash. So the dog made no effort to communicate its
apprehension to the man. It was not concerned in the welfare of the man; it was
for its own sake that it yearned back toward the fire. But the man whistled,
and spoke to it with the sound of whip-lashes and the dog swung in at the man's
heels and followed after.
The man took a chew of tobacco, and proceeded to
start a new amber beard. Also, his moist breath quickly powdered with white his
mustache, eyebrows, and lashes. There did not seem to be so many springs on the
left fork of the Henderson, and for half an hour the man saw no signs of any.
And then it happened. At a place where there were no signs, where the soft,
unbroken snow seemed to advertise solidity beneath, the man broke through. It
was not deep. He wet himself half-way to the knees before he foundered out to
the firm crust.
He was angry, and cursed his luck aloud. He had
hoped to get into camp with the boys at six o'clock, and this would delay him
an hour; for he would have to build a fire and dry out his foot-gear. This was
imperative at that low temperature - he knew that much; and he turned aside to
the bank, which he climbed. On top, tangled in the underbrush about the trunks
of several small spruce-trees, was a high-water deposit of dry fire-wood -
sticks and twigs, principally, but also larger portions of seasoned branches
and fine, dry, last-year's grasses. He threw down several large pieces on top
of the snow. This served for a foundation, and prevented the young flame from
drowning itself in the snow it otherwise would melt. The flame he got by
touching a match to a small shred of birch-bark that he took from his pocket.
This burned even more readily than paper. Placing it on the foundation, he fed
the young flame with wisps of dry grass and with the tiniest dry twigs.
He worked slowly and carefully, keenly aware of
his danger. Gradually, as the flame grew stronger, he increased the size of the
twigs with which he fed it. He squatted in the snow, pulling the twigs out from
their entanglement in the brush, and feeding directly to the flame. He knew
there must be no failure. When it is seventy-five below zero a man must not
fail in his first attempt to build a fire - that is, if his feet are wet. If
his feet are dry, and he fails, he can run along the trail for half a mile and
restore his circulation. But the circulation of wet and freezing feet cannot be
restored by running when it is seventy-five below. No matter how fast he runs,
the wet feet will freeze the harder.
All this the man knew. The old-timer on Sulphur
Creek had told him about it the previous fall, and now he was appreciating the
advice. Already all sensation had gone out of his feet. To build the fire he
had been forced to remove his mittens, and the fingers had quickly gone numb.
His pace of four miles an hour had kept his heart pumping blood to the surface
of his body and to all the extremities. But the instant he stopped, the action
of the pump eased down. The cold of space smote the unprotected tip of the
planet, and he, being on that unprotected tip, received the full force of the
blow. The blood of his body recoiled before it. The blood was alive, like the
dog, and like the dog it wanted to hide away and cover itself up from the
fearful cold. So long as he walked four miles an hour, he pumped that blood,
willy-nilly, to the surface; but now it ebbed away and sank down into the
recesses of his body. The extremities were the first to feel its absence. His
wet feet froze the faster, and his exposed fingers numbed the faster, though
they had not yet begun to freeze. Nose and cheeks were already freezing, while
the skin of all his body chilled as it lost its blood.
But he was safe. Toes and nose and cheeks would
be only touched by the frost, for the fire was beginning to burn with strength.
He was feeding it with twigs the size of his finger. In another minute he would
be able to feed it with branches the size of his wrist, and then he could
remove his wet foot-gear, and while it dried, he could keep his naked feet
warm by the fire, rubbing them at first, of course, with snow. The fire was a
success. He was safe. He remembered the advice of the old-timer at Sulphur
Creek and smiled. The old-timer had been very serious in laying down the law
that no man must travel alone in the Klondike after fifty below. Well, here he
was; he had had the accident; he was alone; and he had saved himself. Those
old-timers were rather womanish, some of them, he thought. All a man had to do
was keep his head, and he was all right. Any man who was a man could travel
alone. But it was surprising, the rapidity with which his cheeks were freezing.
And he had not thought his fingers could go lifeless in so short a time.
Lifeless they were, for he could scarcely make them move together to grip a
twig, and they seemed remote from his body and from him. When he touched a twig
he had to look and see whether or not he had hold of it. The wires were pretty
well down between him and his finger-ends.
All of which counted for little. There was the
fire, snapping and crackling and promising life with every dancing flame. He
started to untie his moccasins. They were coated with ice; the thick German
socks were like sheaths of iron half-way to the knees; and the moccasin-strings
were like rods of steel all twisted and knotted as by some conflagration. For a
moment he tugged with his numb fingers, then, realizing the folly of it, he
drew his sheath-knife.
But before he could cut the strings, it happened.
It was his own fault, or, rather, his mistake. He should not have built the
fire under the spruce-tree. He should have built it in the open. But it had
been easier to pull the twigs from the brush and drop them directly on the
fire. Now the tree under which he had done this carried a weight of snow on its
boughs. No wind had blown for weeks, and each bough was fully freighted. Each
time he had pulled a twig he had communicated a slight agitation to the tree -
an imperceptible agitation, so far as he was concerned, but an agitation
sufficient to bring about the disaster. High up in the tree one bough capsized
its load of snow. This fell on the boughs beneath, capsizing them. This
process continued, spreading out and involving the whole tree. It grew like an
avalanche, and it descended without warning upon the man and the fire, and the
fire was blotted out! Where it had burned was a mantle of fresh and disordered
snow.
The man was shocked. It was as though he had just
heard his own sentence of death. For a moment he sat and stared at the spot
where the fire had been. Then he grew very calm. Perhaps the old-timer on
Sulphur Creek was right. If he had only had a trail-mate he would have been in
no danger now. The trail-mate could have built the fire. Well, it was up to him
to build the fire over again, and this second time there must be no failure.
Even if he succeeded, he would most likely lose some toes. His feet must be
badly frozen by now, and there would be some time before the second fire was
ready.
Such were his thoughts, but he did not sit and
think them. He was busy all the time they were passing through his mind. He
made a new foundation for a fire, this time in the open, where no treacherous
tree could blot it out. Next, he gathered dry grasses and tiny twigs from the
high-water flotsam. He could not bring his fingers to pull them out, but he was
able to gather them by the handful. In this way he got many rotten twigs and
bits of green moss that were undesirable, but it was the best he could do. He
worked methodically, even collecting an armful of the larger branches to be
used later when the fire gathered strength. And all the while the dog sat and
watched him, a certain yearning wistfulness in its eyes, for it looked upon him
as the fire-provider, and the fire was slow in coming.
When all was ready, the man reached in his pocket
for a second piece of birch-bark. He knew the bark was there, and, though he
could not feel it with his fingers, he could hear its crisp rustling as he
fumbled for it. Try as he would, he could not clutch hold of it. And all the
time, in his consciousness, was the knowledge that each instant his feet were
freezing. This thought tended to put him in a panic, but he fought against it
and kept calm. He pulled on his mittens with his teeth, and threshed his arms
back and forth, beating his hands with all his might against his sides. He did
this sitting down, and he stood up to do it. And all the while the dog sat in
the snow, its wolf-brush of a tail curled around warmly over its forefeet, its
sharp wolf-ears pricked forward intently as it watched the man. And the man,
as he beat and threshed with his arms and hands, felt a great surge of envy as
he regarded the creature that was warm and secure in its natural covering.
After a time he was aware of the first far-away
signals of sensation in his beaten fingers. The faint tingling grew stronger
till it evolved into a stinging ache that was excruciating, but which the man
hailed with satisfaction. He stripped the mitten from his right hand and
fetched for the birch-bark. The exposed fingers were quickly going numb again.
Next he brought out his bunch of sulphur matches. But the tremendous cold had
already driven the life out of his fingers. In his effort to separate one match
from the others, the whole bunch fell in the snow. He tried to pick it out of
the snow, but failed. The dead fingers could neither touch nor clutch. He was
very careful. He drove the thought of his freezing feet, and nose, and cheeks,
out of his mind, devoting his whole soul to the matches. He watched, using the
sense of vision in place of that of touch, and when he saw his fingers on each
side the bunch, he closed them - that is, he willed to close them, for the
wires were down, and the fingers did not obey. He pulled the mitten on the
right hand and beat it fiercely against his knee. Then, with both mittened
hands, he scooped the bunch of matches, along with much snow, into his lap.
Yet he was no better off.
After some manipulation he managed to get the
bunch between the heels of his mittened hands. In this fashion he carried it
to his mouth. The ice crackled and snapped when by a violent effort he opened
his mouth. He drew the lower jaw in, curled the upper lip out of the way, and
scraped the bunch with his upper teeth in order to separate a match. He
succeeded in getting one, which he dropped on his lap. He was no better off.
He could not pick it up. Then he devised a way. He picked it up in his teeth
and scratched it on his leg. Twenty times he scratched it before he succeeded
in lighting it. As it flamed he held it with his teeth to the birch-bark. But
the burning brimstone went up his nostrils and into his lungs, causing him to
cough spasmodically. The match fell into the snow and went out.
The old-timer on Sulphur Creek was right, he
thought in the moment of controlled despair that ensued: after fifty below a
man should travel with a partner. He beat his hands, but failed in exciting any
sensation. Suddenly he bared both hands, removing the mittens with his teeth.
He caught the whole bunch between the heels of his hands. His arm-muscles not
being frozen enabled him to press the hand-heels tightly against the matches.
Then he scratched the bunch along his leg. It flared into flame, seventy
sulphur matches at once! There was no wind to blow them out. He kept his head
to one side to escape the strangling fumes, and held the blazing bunch to the
birch-bark. As he so held it, he became aware of a sensation in his hand. His
flesh was burning. He could smell it. Deep down below the surface he could feel
it. The sensation developed into pain that grew acute. And still he endured it,
holding the flame of the matches clumsily to the bark that would not light
readily because his own burning hands were in the way, absorbing most of the
flame.
At last, when he could endure no more, he jerked
his hands apart. The blazing matches fell sizzling into the snow, but the
birch-bark was alight. He began laying dry grasses and the tiniest twigs on the
flame. He could not pick and choose, for he had to lift the fuel between the
heels of his hands. Small pieces of rotten wood and green moss clung to the
twigs, and he bit them off as well as he could with his teeth. He cherished the
flame carefully and awkwardly. It meant life, and it must not perish. The
withdrawal of blood from the surface of his body now made him begin to shiver,
and he grew more awkward. A large piece of green moss fell squarely on the
little fire. He tried to poke it out with his fingers, but his shivering frame
made him poke too far, and he disrupted the nucleus of the little fire, the
burning grasses and tiny twigs separating and scattering. He tried to poke them
together again, but in spite of the tenseness of the effort, his shivering got
away with him, and the twigs were hopefully scattered. Each twig gushed a puff
of smoke and went out. The fire-provider had failed. As he looked apathetically
about him, his eyes chanced on the dog, sitting across the ruins of the fire
from him, in the snow, making restless, hunching movements, slightly lifting
one forefoot and then the other, shifting its weight back and forth on them
with wistful eagerness.
The sight of the dog put a wild idea in his head.
He remembered the tale of the man, caught in a blizzard, who killed a steer and
crawled inside the carcase, and so was saved. He would kill the dog and bury
his hands in the warm body until the numbness went out of them. Then he could
build another fire. He spoke to the dog, calling it to him; but in his voice
was a strange note of fear that frightened the animal, who had never known the
man to speak in such way before. Something was the matter, and its suspicious
nature sensed danger - it knew not what danger, but somewhere, somehow, in its
brain arose an apprehension of the man. It flattened its ears down at the sound
of the man's voice, and its restless, hunching movements and the liftings and
shiftings of it forefeet became more pronounced; but it would not come to the
man. He got on his hands and knees and crawled toward the dog. This unusual
posture again excited suspicion, and the animal sidled mincingly away.
The man sat up in the snow for a moment and
struggled for calmness. Then he pulled on his mittens, by means of his teeth,
and got upon his feet. He glanced down at first in order to assure himself that
he was really standing up, for absence of sensation in his feet left him
unrelated to the earth. His erect position in itself started to drive the webs
of suspicion from the dog's mind; and when he spoke peremptorily, with the
sound of whip-lashes in his voice, the dog rendered its customary allegiance
and came to him. As it came within reaching distance the man lost his control.
His arms flashed out to the dog, and he experienced genuine surprise when he
discovered that his hands could not clutch, that there was neither bend nor
feeling in the fingers. He had forgotten for them moment that they were frozen
and that they were freezing more and more. All this happened quickly, and
before the animal could get away he encircled its body with his arms. He sat
down in the snow, and in this fashion held the dog, while it snarled and whined
and struggled.
But it was all he could do, hold its body
encircled in his arms and sit there. He realized that he could not kill the
dog. There was no way to do it. With his helpless hand he could neither draw
nor hold his sheath-knife nor throttle the animal. He released it, and it
plunged wildly away, with tail between its legs, and still snarling. It halted
forty feet away and surveyed him curiously, with ears sharply pricked forward.
The man looked down at his hands in order to locate them, and found them
hanging on the ends of his arms. It struck him as curious that one should have
to use his eyes in order to find out where his hands were. He began threshing
his arms back and forth, beating the mittened hands against his sides. He did
this for five minutes, violently, and his heart pumped enough blood up to the
surface to put a stop to his shivering. But no sensation was aroused in the
hands. He had an impression that they hung light weights on the ends of his
arms. But when he tried to run the impression down, he could not find it.
A certain fear of death, dull and oppressive,
came to him. This fear quickly became poignant as he realized that it was no
longer a mere matter of freezing his fingers and toes, or of losing his hands
and feet, but that it was a matter of life and death with the chances against
him. This threw him into a panic, and he turned and ran up the creek-bed along
the old, dim trail. The dog joined in behind and kept up with him. He ran
blindly, without intention, in fear such as he had never known in his life.
Slowly, as he plowed and floundered through the snow, he began to see things
again, - the banks of the creek, the old timber-jams, the leafless aspens, and
the sky. The running made him feel better. He did not shiver. Maybe, if he ran
on, his feet would thaw out; and, anyway, if he ran far enough he would reach
camp and the boys. Without doubt he would lose some fingers and toes and some
of his face; but the boys would take care of him, and save the rest of him when
he got there. And at the same time there was another thought in his mind that
he would never get to the camp and the boys; that it was too many miles away,
that the freezing had too great a start on him, and that he would soon be stiff
and dead. This thought he kept in the background, and refused to consider.
Sometimes it pushed itself forward and demanded to be heard, but he thrust it
back and strove to think of other things.
It struck him as curious that he could run at all
on feet so frozen that he could not feel them when they struck the earth and
took the weight of his body. He seemed to himself to skim along above the
surface, and to have no connection with the earth. Somewhere he had once seen a
winged Mercury, and he wondered if Mercury felt as he felt when skimming over
the earth.
His theory of running until he reached camp and
the boys had one flaw in it: he lacked the endurance. Several times he
stumbled, and finally he tottered, crumpled up, and fell. When he tried to
rise, he failed. He must sit and rest, he decided, and next time he would
merely walk and keep on going. As he sat and regained his breath, he noted that
he was feeling quite warm and comfortable. He was not shivering, and it even
seemed that a warm glow had come to his chest and trunk. And yet, when he
touched his nose or cheeks, there was no sensation. Running would not thaw them
out. Nor would it thaw his hands and feet. Then the thought came to him that
the frozen portions of his body must be extending. He tried to keep this
thought down, to forget it, to think of something else; he was aware of the
panicky feeling that it caused, and he was afraid of the panic. But the thought
asserted itself, and persisted, until it produced a vision of his body total
frozen. This was too much, and he made another wild run along the trail. Once
he slowed down to a walk, but the thought of the freezing extending itself made
him run again.
And all the time the dog ran with him, at his
heels. When he fell down a second time, it curled its tail over its forefeet
and sat in front of him, facing him, curiously eager and intent. The warmth and
security of the animal angered him, and he cursed it till it flattened down its
ears appeasingly. This time the shivering came more quickly upon the man. He
was losing in his battle with the frost. It was creeping into his body from all
sides. The thought of it drove him on, but he ran no more than a hundred feet,
when he staggered and pitched headlong. It was his last panic. When he had
recovered his breath and control, he sat up and entertained in his mind the
conception of meeting death with dignity. However, the conception did not come
to him in such terms. His ideas of it was that he had been making a fool of
himself, running around like a chicken with its head cut off - such was the
simile that occurred to him. Well, he was bound to freeze anyway, and he might
aw well take it decently. With this new-found peace of mind came the first
glimmerings of drowsiness. A good idea, he thought, to sleep off to death. It
was like taking an anesthetic. Freezing was not so bad as people thought. There
were lots worse ways to die.
He pictured the boys finding his body next day.
Suddenly he found himself with them, coming along the trail and looking for
himself. And, still with them, he came around a turn in the trail and found
himself lying in the snow. He did not belong with himself any more, for even
then he was out of himself, standing with the boys and looking at himself in
the snow. It certainly was cold he thought. When he got back to the States he
could tell the folks what real cold was. He drifted on from this to a vision of
the old-timer on Sulphur Creek. He could see him quite clearly, warm, and
comfortable, and smoking a pipe.
"You were right, old hoss; you were were
right," the man mumbled to the old-timer of Sulphur Creek.
Then the man drowsed off into what seemed to him
the most comfortable and satisfying sleep he had ever known. The dog sat facing
him and waiting. The brief day drew to a close in a long, slow twilight. There
were no signs of a fire. As the twilight drew on, its eager yearning for the
fire mastered it, and with a great lifting and shifting of forefeet, it whined
softly, then flattened its ears down in anticipation of being chidden by the
man. But the man remained silent. Later, the dog whined loudly. And still
later it crept close to the man and caught the scent of death. This made the
animal bristle and back away. A little longer it delayed, howling under the
stars that leaped and danced and shone brightly in the cold sky. Then it turned
and trotted up the trail in the direction of the camp it knew, where were the
other food-providers and the fire-providers.
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